uh. get the fuck out of town.

a looot of shit maan. i just dont know where to begin. i dont know if i can begin.

all i know is that i met some people and did some things and had quite a life
changing evening that it feels like i have a new life.

im probably just trippin about that night though. but im pretty sure i've been
thinking about things. i definately want to move to chicago and live with kayci
out there. i want to get more into music and possibly do something with that.
im really excited for things to come. not necessarily in the next month with my
court and shit, but within the next year. im hoping to start over with something
for a little bit. maybe ill come back to live, but whoooo knows.

we'll just have to see. and im stoked as shit.

halloween is here. and i figured i would come back and tell a little story about my weekend.

i got out of work around 7 on friday and i went home and put on my hillbilly costume. i went to halloween usa to buy a mullet wig and its pretty much the most hideous thing ive seen. so i meet up with kayci and adrienne at the store and we head up to a house show downtown. after a while when we were sober, we left to go to stevens party. i get trashed. but i had a so much fun bc i was hangin with most of my favorite people. then we leave and go to clays party and kayci drives me car there and i get out of the car and start pissing in front of a bunch of gangstas in the street. i got pissed at a girl there bc she was annoying me and wouldnt let me say one fuckin word so i kind of pushed her i guess and told her to "get the fuck out of town." this is when everything is lost in my brain. im told i get into my car while kayci is peeing on the side of the house and yell "i need fooood." so i go to sns and get somethin. i end up in paw paw and i came back to reality as the cop was pulling me over. i didnt know where i was. he gives me a breathalizer and cuffs me and i get taken to the jail. when i woke up in the morning i didnt know where i was. so im tryin to figure out what happened. i saw some guys in a shirt that said "VBC JAIL." uhhhh van buren county are you serious? i was clueless and amazed at the same time. so bryon and kenzie payed my bond which was 200$. then i had to get my car out of impound which was 120$. shiiiit. but this isnt the entire story but you get the point.



DONT DRINK AND DRIVE, KIDS!

im hanging out with my bff tonight. we got some PBR. and being boring internet lurkers. shane is coming to see meeeee tomorrow night after work. i know i will be in a good mood all day. unless work sucks.

school starts soon. havent signed up for classes yet. im a bad procrastinator. really bad, im guessing.

i've been finished with school a week ago today. this weekend is very busy for me. i have a grad. party on sat. and then graduation and grad bash on sunday/monday. im really excited for all of this. yesterday was senior breakfast. i went with sam and jeni and we got really blown before we ate. haha, we went to o.c.b. and i had some eggs with cheese, potatoes, and some ice cream. i poured the ice cream in the bowl and it came out like a big turd pile and dripped everywhere. it was intense.
i've been also thinking a lot about my relationship status. i dont know what to do. im soo confused with it. i know what i should do, but i dont know. raaahh. i hate it.

I went to the show at rocketstar last night. i danced. and it was wonderful. it was fuuuuuuun. then i went to pauls for a bit. you know. haha. and then went to a party. i had these really good drinks. and, i was kaycis boyfriend for the night because these black guys were making asses of themselves. they even had the balls to walk into someones room there and steal his wallet, among other things im sure. RUUUDDE! and me and kayc went to taco bell. and i got out of my car when we were waiting and asked the car in front of me what they ordered. the passenger was a bitch, but i was performing a survey. i need all the data i can get. haha.



it was a veryyy good night.

hmmm. i dont know what to say. really. i've been kind of depressed today. i dont know why, probably the weather. rain is about soooo twenty seven years ago. and among other things, sometimes i dont feel like i am good enough. maybe im not. all i want is for me to be happy with my life for once. i dont give a shit if its for a week, just for me to be happy. not worry about things. i heard this thing on the radio once that a black person said "White people worry too much." sometimes im pretty sure thats true. at least with me. i worry, i think, im a fucking douche.

on a happier note, paul got a new haircut and its really cute. and i got to see eric f. yesterday. and i was in a good mood. i got to talk to lizzy and kayci about things. 'twas wonderful.

i called into work a half hour before my shift on sunday. and my boss got ed. then yesterday i came into work a half hour late, and she was even more ed. so, she sat me down and talked to me about how i should be fired for calling in a lot and blah blah blah. so, next week i am on suspension from work. yay, no working next week. and i put in an application at speedway so i can hopefully get a job there. it would probably be better than mcdonalds. at least i could go out and smoke a cigarette and a bowl or something. anyways, back to my job. so that happened. and then i got a towel so i could clean some grease off the grill and this fat bitch "manager in training" grabs the ing towel out of my hands and says "thank you, sweep my floor please." i stood there, shocked and appauled. how is someone, especially a "manager in training" going to just take something out of MY ING HANDS. i could have ing tore the place down. so, hopefully i work with her again and she does something pathetic again so i have a reason to walk out. fat bitch. seriously, this woman is HUGE, and i mean HUGE, and she looks like a dog. people call her Clifford, and she thinks its because she wears a red shirt. she has no idea.

in any case, i needed to write that because i have been thinking about it all day. and it kind of makes me angry.

last night, i went to the TAKING BACK SUNDAY concert with jeni, lauren, and katie. i had so much fun. we went to clutch cargos in pontiac. so, we got there like 2 hrs. early from when the doors opened. and we went in and i had to pee like crazy. so i peed. and all they have are blacklights in the bathroom, so i nearly pissed all over myself. not good.

the opening band was SUICIDE CITY. they were good. they were a really good opener. and the best part.....a transsexual guitarist. holy sshit. he/she came out in a bra and i was like, what is that. then i realized, and i thought he/she was everything i wanted to be. haha. not really. but i smiled. the other band that played was TOKYO ROSE, but i didnt really get to listen to them because i was being crushed. so, me, jeni, and katie went to the upper part, because there is a balcony because its an old church. and we are up there for a while during TBS, and i decide im not having the full effect. so i go back down to the bottom and start dancing and screaming and sweating and pushing. it was awesome. my life was great.

after the show, i lost the group and i was scared. i went outside and i was freezing because i was wet EVERYWHERE. and i wasnt happy then. i waited about thirty minutes til i finally found my peoples. katie had to go home with her mom, so we all went to the parking lot and got stuff signed by matt[bass] and got a picture. i was pooping by then. and we took off. stopped at wendys and taco bell. and i was out like your mom.

in other news, i have my tux for prom. its white with black pinstripes and an orange tie. and i got my hair cut in the back. and i miss paul.

i miss paul wall. his grill look somethin like a disco ball.










&& im going to look at some clothes for prom tonight. :).
actually, its kind of exciting because im going to have fun and look oh so good.
i might just get a haircut also.